Gods Crayon Box

 God’s Crayon Box

by Janette VanLeer

I sat at my desk one day

feeling lonely, sad, and depressed.

My heart was aching, my shoulders heavy,

and my life seemed to be a great big mess.

I cried out, “God, what is the point, why am I here?”

“Is there a purpose I’m on this earth?”

“I feel so small, insignificant, unimportant,

and of very little worth.”

Sitting on my desk was a box of crayons

full of colors of every different hue.

I sat and stared at them,

wondering what I should do.

Is there more to life than what I can see?

Do I really matter?

Is there a part for me to play?

I am sick of feeling so beaten and so battered!

I took out the green and drew some grass,

and blue to shade the sky.

I added a yellow circle for the sun,

and purple became a mountain, majestic and high.

Then, I drew circles with purple, blue, and orange,

nestled within the blades of grass,

and created a beautiful meadow of flowers.

I began to see at last.

 Each and every single crayon in my box

is beautiful and unique.

And, its individual color

plays its own part, making my drawing complete.

But only when they get out of the box,

and are willing to do their part,

can they add their essence to my drawing

and complete my work of art.

God’s plan, I began to see,

is for me to understand and know

that the trials I was experiencing

were there for me to grow.

For each and every one of us

is precious in His sight,

and all He asks of each of us

is to learn and share our light.

He has blessed each one of us

with gifts and talents that are divine.

We fulfill the measure of our creation

when we let them shine.

I know that each and everyone

is a color in God’s grand design.

And if we will trust and let Him guide us

He will create a masterpiece in time.

Happiness Is More Than A Choice

     These last few weeks I have had two experiences with two dear friends that have changed my belief about what it takes to be happy. In the many self help books I have read the underlying message is that you are as  happy as you choose to be.  While I agree that mindset plays a big role it has become very clear that the kind of happiness that is long lasting and is accompainied by peace takes and added ingredient and takes more than just changing your mind set.
      Both of these friends have had, and are currently experiencing great trials in their life. But, as I was listening to a talk given by one friend in church he said that this was the best December he has ever had. As he said it you knew he was happy and at peace. While having a conversation with the other friend she was telling me how unhappy she was and how she feels like life  has treated her unfairly.  As I was pondering my experiences with both of these dear friends I wondered what made the difference. Why was one happy and the other miserable, when they both were experiencing hard things?  Boom! It  hit me like a ton of bricks. My friend that is happy, it is obvious that he has a close relationship with God and Jesus Christ.  Instead of being angry over his circumstances he has chosen to be submissive to Gods will.  This has brought him great peace. My friend that is miserable frequently asks the question, "Why me?".  She has some anger towards God for her circumstances and feels that life hasn't been fair. I don't want to make this person out to be a bad person. She is a sweet, kind person.  But struggles in putting her trust in the Lord and choosing to create a strong relationship with God and the Savior.  

     So what did I learn from this? What is the secret to happiness? What made the difference in one friend being happy despite his trials and the other one being miserable because of them.  The degree that we know God and Jesus and allow their love to work miracles in our lives is the degree that we will be happy and have peace.

Just BE

 JUST “BE”

By Janette VanLeer

Be ye therefore perfect is Gods command to me

It seemed quite overwhelming till I came to understand the “BE”

I realized that everything I desire is found,
when I just "BE" simple blessings abound.

For when I quiet my ego minds incessant chatter,

and live from the essence of my spirit and what really matters,

I "BE” faith, for God is always there to help me out,

and I shift from a state of fear or doubt.

 I “BE” unconditional love and receive all the love that God hast.

Then judgment of others and myself becomes a thing of the past.

I “BE” charity, serve others,  for God always fills my cup.

 I quit feeling sorry for myself and that I will never measure up.

I “BE” hope and I find the strength to continue smiling.

I am no longer discouraged and wonder why I keep trying?

I “Be” obedient, submissive and peace comes to stay.

I let go of stubbornness and doing things my way.

Sometimes I forget and I feel turmoil, pain, and stress

My ego mind takes over and life feels like a big mess.

But when I am humbled and drop to my knees

My answer from God is always to “BE”.

To “BE” and live each day from my essence,

I make wise decisions and can “BE” in Gods presence.

My spirit is radiant for I have the pure love of Christ.

To live and just “BE” really is the spice of life.

I Am A Pumpkin!

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I recently got a cute e-mail from my sister that compared us to a pumpkin with God as the Master carver.  It began with the question, “What is it like to be Christian?”  Then it went on to say that being a Christian is like being a pumpkin. God picks you from the pumpkin patch opens you up and begins to scoop all the yucky stuff out of you. Then he carves you a new smiling face and puts his light inside you for all the world to see.

 When we really love and trust God enough to turn our will over to Him then  he will help us scoop out all the slimy stuff inside that isn’t serving us like  fear, judgment, bitterness,  guilt, sadness, low self worth,  jealousy, heartache, stubbornness and pride. It is through his love and our willingness to follow him that our fear turns into faith, and judgment turns into unconditional love, and bitterness and guilt turns into forgiveness, and sadness and heartache turns into peace, and low self-worth turns into wholeness, and stubbornness and pride turn into humility.   

Then we through what ever our talents, and spiritual gifts, are will fulfill our ultimate purpose on the earth which is as Matthew 5:16 says to: 

The Mysteries of the Heart

 

Please watch this 2:34 minute video on the Mysteries of the Heart

(If the above video does not show up in your e-mail 

please click on the title of this blog to learn the 

powerful role your heart plays in your life.)

Every day, every moment of the day we are experiencing emotions. As you saw in the video science is discovering that these emotions originate in the heart and then are processed by our brain. Whether these emotions are positive or negative greatly affect our life, health, and those around us.  Positive emotions create peace and harmony in our lives, proven by the even smooth rhythm of our heart beat. Negative emotions create havoc, stress, and unrest in our lives proven by the irregular chaotic heart beat. The emotions that we carry in our heart also greatly affect our energy field and what we are putting out and getting back from the world. This is also called the Law of the Harvest or Karma.

Many times we are not even aware of the negative energy we carry because we have lived with it for so long that it feels comfortable. All we know is that we are unhappy and unfulfilled in life. Many times it was created from events that happened even as long ago as your birth.  I realized that part of the reason I struggled so much with self worth is because my mom became pregnant with me when she was 47 years old and was  not happy about it.  I spent 9 months in the womb knowing that I wasn't wanted.  Then from that point on every time something negative would happen in my life it would validate and subconsciously add a brick to my wall of feeling unimportant, not enough, and less than.  My head would constantly be telling me that no matter how hard I try I will never be good enough, that my husband really couldn't love someone like me, that I was a horrible mother, that I am a failure, that it doesn't make a difference whether I am here or not, that life isn't fair.

  Take a moment and get in touch with the thoughts and mental chatter that plays in your head.  Is it positive or negative? Does it make you feel good about yourself and create peace in your heart, or does create overwhelm, feelings of not being enough, anger, bitterness, or a pity party? Are your thoughts creating positive or negative Karma?


There are many ways  to heal and create more positive emotions. One of the biggest is to live in a state of gratitude, recognizing and focusing on the abundance and blessings in our life instead of the problems. Forgiveness is also a huge tool of healing.  When we hold onto grudges, resentment, and bitterness, it hold us hostage and keeps us in bondage from experiencing peace and joy. Letting go of judgement and being charitable, which is seeing ourselves and others thru the pure love of Christ. This means that we look for and focus on the good in ourselves and others, which when you think about it is a great way to serve mankind.

What negative emotions are you tired of feeling and are ready to release? What positive feelings do you want instead? Take a moment and write down any negative emotions you have experienced today and then beside them write the opposite positive emotion. Ask God to help you learn how to create more of what you do want and less of what you don't want. Be aware of people in your life that emulate those emotions and make them your teachers.  If  you want to speed up the process schedule an energy session, I would love to help you create peace and wholeness in your life. You will be amazed at what one session can release, and how you will feel lighter and more at peace.

Is Life Giving You What You Desire?

Out thoughts, our beliefs and our actions is what creates our lives by the vibration that we put out. Because of the natural Law of the Harvest, also known as  Karma or the Law of Attraction, what we consciously, or unconsciously put out is also what we get back from life only magnified. 

This was demonstrated by an experiment called the Ripple Effect that I read about recently in the book To Him That Believeth, by Frederick and June Babbel.  He says, "One of the students challenged my suggestion that our thoughts and feelings are projected to those around us and will likewise result in an increased return of good or ill. He and his companions volunteered to conduct an experiment to prove that I was mistaken about such things. I invited them to bring their results to the concluding session two weeks later.

When they returned, they sketched briefly on the blackboard a diagram of their experiment. They had taken a piece of heavy plank, and on top of it they had mounted a seismograph. Underneath they had suspended a sonar sounding device like that used on ships to detect underwater disturbances.

They placed this equipment well out in one of their man-made lakes. Then they took a large boulder and threw it so it landed in the water near this device. The seismograph registered the splash, the waves, and even the ripples as they disappeared along the shoreline.

The students continued to focus their binoculars on the seismograph. In a little while the recording needle began to move in an ever-increasing intensity. The monitoring tape showed the final register to be almost three times the intensity of the register of the splash. They concluded that the ripples to the shoreline had returned under water back to the rock, the original source of the energy. The sonar system in the water indicated that the force that returned to the rock had been multiplied approximately three times.

They concluded that since the principle applies to inanimate objects (such as the rock), it would surely apply to thoughts and feelings, which scientific instruments have recorded as producing measurable amounts of energy.

When I teach my classes one of the things I do to demonstrate this principle is to have someone come up to the front of the room. I hold up a piece of paper that the person upfront can't see that say's I hate you, you are ugly, you are dumb and ask the class to project these thoughts toward the person in front. I then ask them to hold their arm out to the side and tell them to hold strong, meaning resist letting me push your arm down. The person will always go weak. Then I will hold a sign up that says I love you, you are beautiful, you are amazing and ask the class to project that towards the person in front. This time when I push down on the persons arm they are able to resist me and I can't push their arm down. It is a perfect example of how our thoughts affect ourselves as well as others.

Based on these two experiments it would seem that if we want to change something in our lives  all we have to do is change our thoughts and beliefs about it and that will change our actions, which will attract to us the result we want, right. Easier said than done. We have a thing called a subconscious mind that can get in our way.  Our subconscious mind is where we store all our beliefs and emotions about life. There are many things stored there that can trigger emotions and actions that we are not even aware of.  If there is a false belief in our subconscious mind around what we are trying to create it will sabotage you every time.  Many times that belief and the negative emotions surrounding it was created by an event that happened that we have totally forgotten about, but is still affecting our lives today. The good news is that through energy work it is easy to pinpoint the emotion that is sabotaging you and clear it, without having to go through the drama, and/or trauma of the event.  Most of the time the persons subconscious mind knows it is affecting their life in a negative way and they are so tired of the results that it is creating and is more than happy to let it go. Infact, the only time I have seen it  not be ready is when there is resentment or bitterness involved and the person thinks they are punishing the person by holding onto it. Many times after this is released my client will comment how much lighter and better they feel.

An example of this that showed up in my life was around my birthday. A friend of mine wanted to take me to lunch and then go shopping and buy me something new.  I was fine to go to lunch with her, but I was having a hard time letting her take me shopping and especially to buy me stuff. I knew in my head that it was what friends do and that if it were her birthday I would want to do the same for her, but in my heart I felt pure panic at the thought of it. Because of my training in energy work I realized that there had to be something from my past that was creating this feeling of panic.  The more I thought about it I realized that I had a really hard time asking for help, or receiving things from others.  If I ever thought that I had put someone out I would feel terrible, to the point you would think I had committed a huge sin.   I did some energy work around this and realized that the emotions I was storing were about never wanting to be a burden or  a task to someone came from when I was a brand new baby. I remembered that when I was born my mother got very sick and the women in my church took care of me during the day, and my older sisters took care of me after school and on the weekends. I am not sure exactly how long this went on, but I know it went on for quite a few months.  As you can imagine over time the excitement over having a new baby wore off and they took care of me because they had to, not because they wanted to.  As a baby I felt and took on their emotions that they were putting out and it was still affecting my ability to have a healthy relationship with others clear into my 40's.  The good news is that my subconscious mind was ready and waiting to let all those emotions go and I was able to clear them energetically.  Now when someone wants to serve me I am fine with it. It feels good and I can actually appreciate it and be in gratitude for it.


Recently, a client of mine I will call Diane came to me because she was very unhappy and knew she had alot of stuck negative emotions that were affecting her self worth and her relationship with her kids and husband.  As we worked to identify what the issue was not trusting herself came up. We then identified that an event that happened when she was 15 was the root of this emotion. Without going into to much detail she made a decision that later she felt wase a huge mistake and has created alot of grief in her life created the false belief that she was unable to make good decisions. A few years later when she got married and ended up getting a divorce further added to this belief. She realized that because she was so afraid to make another mistake that she was giving all her power away to others. She didn't know who she was,  like who she was, or have any idea what she wanted to do with her life.  It was so fun to help her realize how she had let this bad experience affect her life, and feel all the  heaviness in her leave as we cleared it. It also came up in the session that the reason she made those bad choices was because she was pleasing other people instead of listening to her own voice and finding her own answers.



If there are things in your life that you are feeling frustrated by, is it a possibility that a false belief is at the root of it?

Day 23: My Last Day Is Also My FIrst

Every time you have a last you also have a first. Tomorrow is the end of August and the last day of my commitment that I made to not eat any sugar for the month of August. Tomorrow is also the first day of the rest of my life of committing to live what I now know is truth for me and honoring my body, mind, and spirit. I now have pure knowledge that sugar does not serve me in any way, except for maybe the few minutes I am enjoying whatever I am eating. After truly experiencing life without sugar and the payoff that has come with it I don't want to go back, I only want to move forward. I have discovered and learned what I really was choosing by thinking it was impossible to totally give it up. That what I was really choosing was moods swings, anxiety, feeling negative about myself, low energy, and still not feeling enough. I don't choose to live that way anymore. I choose to be whole. This doesn't mean that I don't still make plenty of mistakes, have lots to learn, and that I won't still have an off day here and there. It does mean that for the first time I really love me, stretch marks, freckles, varicose veins and all. It means that I am able to feel my Heavenly Fathers love, and that all he truly wants for me is joy. It means that I no longer experience feeling a hole inside of not being enough. I am enough by just being me, imperfections and all, and that has been a huge gift to discover.